Un live ? Allons bon, j'ecris ceci au moment présent. je tappe les touche pour la premiere fois en exprimant pour surement la seule et unique fois ces mots...
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"What's going on ?"
"It's my first time.
I never been so cheered up.
How could it be ?
Why is it happenning now ?
No, I must keep myself focused.
I should not think about sad things.
I may have weird thoughts...
But why would i screw my happiness ?
Long time no see...
My smile on my face.
A true one ? Indeed. but...
NO ! No tears. no fake smile.
How could it be ?
When was the last time i feeled like this ?
I wonder... I wonder if i ever been so happy.
What's happening ?
I doN't know but i don't care !
Since i want to,
Since it's feel so good.
I will just Enjoy the time.
I dont know when i will loose my feeling again...
But who care !?
I mean if i can smile truly,
And make people smile too...
What can i ask more ?
I just miss ONE last thing.
Do you know what it is ?
Ooh.. yeah. you bet !
I need a walk.
What ? you don't trust me ?
Oh, sorry, in fact you're surprised.
hehe, you too isn't it ?
By the way.
You know me since long...
Could you tell me ?
What happenned Yesterday ?
No ? Why don't you want ?
Why are you blushing that much ?
mmh.. Is it a matter of love ?
Did I...
I'm so sorry. I totally forgot.
Forgot what ?
It was your birthday yesterday. no ?
Didn't have any présent. I apologize.
But know what ?
I don't care !
It could seem a little creepy,
to say that in front of everyone...
So, aren't you happy yourself ?
I Finnaly found the courage.
The courage to forgive myself.
And to forget you...
I will turn my back at you.
I will walk away with no fears.
I will look up to the sky...
I WILL SHOUT THIS :
I-AM-FREE !!! I-CAN-SMILE !! I-DID-FORGIVE !
Again and again.
Laughing to my last breath.
Why ? Oh. You you know.
These other people ?
Should i ? Should i tell them ?
Should i say that you died by my fault ?
Should i say that i martirised you without knowing it ?
Should i say that i did the fooliest thing ever ?
Nah. i don't think so.
Sorry Dear, Again.
But i can not stay any longer.
I must go.
I Swear you babe...
I will come back soon.
Birthday yesterday...
Deathday next week...
Always loved ya.
Will always love ya.
Now it's time to say Goodbye.
Wish me luck ?
I know, But a friend await me.
i should say Many friends...
Why ? Ooh, it's simple.
Listen...
just ask yourself how,
and no more question are needed.
Just search inside of you...
Like i did.
So, Now you're free to go to Heaven.
I Won't retain you much longer.
Sorry for that again.
Love you, Kiss you, Hug you.
Wrote the 12 May 2007.
On the grave of Miriam...
By her only love...
R.I.P.
August 13 1985 ~ May 20 2003"
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La je L'écrit sur papier. et je M'en vais justement le graver sur sa tombe.
j'y retournerai le 20 mai.
Plus Live que ca. y'a pas. aller. je garde mon sourire qt j'me tire la "visiter" ^^